Sunday, September 25, 2011

Big decisions make huge changes

There are some changes in our life that we can't run of, like growing up for example. But there are some others that we have control off. I spend since I was 4 years till when a was 12 years old in a catholic school name Monte Maria, a school only for girls. I spend the most hilarious and funny moments there, I made some friends that I know that will stay with me all my life. I was in six grade and my fathers told me that I could take the decision of going to other school with boys and that was closer to our house. At that moment I didn't knew what to do, I felt like my hole life will take a different way if I say yes to my parents. In my stomach I felt like this feeling of emptiness, because I have been all my life with my friends of monte maria and I love them very much, but I really wanted to met new people, to see what was like to be in the same class with a boy. I didn't wanted my friend of Monte maria felt like I was betrayed on them and that I will never talk to them again. Some of my friends there told me that I will be forgetting them the first year in other school. But finally I say yes to my parents of going to a new school name Colegio Internacional de Guatemala. My parents were known at this school because my brothers had study their hole life there. One day I went to this school to do my admission exam, I was very nervous, when I enter the class I felt like my heart was about to get out of my body because it was pumping so fast. They give me three different exame; one of math; one of spanish language and one of english. The format of the exams where really diferent at the format of the exams in monte maria. I remember I did pretty well at it. I was with my friends of monte maria when my mom call me and said that I have been accepted in internacional. At that moment I went to the bathroom and I started to cry because I wasn't sure of my decision and I am very sentimental and emotional girl. I was really happy about it but at the same time I was confuse and sad because that would be the last year with my monte maria's girls. I told them and they where happy for me but sad at the same time because we wouldn't see each other everyday, I told them that we will be in contact and I will never forget them. The last day of school came and I cry all the day and my friends cry too I felt sad but at the same time anxious because of that change. Vacation went by really fast and my first day of school came. That day I barely could sleep, I wake up very early and I get ready to go to my new school, waiting the bus I felt in my stomach that felling like puck was going out of my mouth, but I stay calm and get to the bus. That day our bus had a long way to school and we get late. I couldn't believe that my first day In my new school I was going late! Could anything worst happen? I enter to the class and I felt like someone had take my breath away I was so nervous I couldn't believe that I was on a new school I could barely talk. Thankfully I had met some girls before so I wasn't alone and everyone made me felt like I wasn't new. That day I knew there was not turning back, and some other friends of monte maria asked me how it was my first day at my new school and the truth was that it went really good actually. This two schools were completely different because at monte maria we were girls acting silly having a good time. But in internacional we were having a good time but we weren't completly silly because we couldn't be it infront of some boys. But boys were fun to be with too. I like both schools, both are funny at their own different way. I'm glad of making that change and taking that decision. Because there I met my best friends and some other people that have a big place on my heart. I dont talk to all my friends at Monte maria but my true friends of that school still by my side and we hang out together too, we remind really close. I can't say which school I like most because both are really different nor I can say which one are more difficult when it comes of education because as I say its really different type of school. But in my actual school I have had the best time of my life and I have met different people whom I will be able to give my life for and I didn't know what I have done without them.

Monday, September 19, 2011

His arms: the only place where I felt secure

February 2, 2008 we where at the movies and he said: do you want to be my girlfriend? I still remember everything like it juts happened yesterday... It was like 4 or 5 of the afternoon. I have meet Carlos 6 years ago and we meet by coincidence. He was a friend of one of my friend's boyfriend, I never imagined he will ment this much to me! He has dark hair, which he puts up with gel, or sometimes he let it grow and use it aside. he has brown eyes but his eyes aren't really dark. He is the type of guy that uses big shoes DC and clothe that make him feel comfortable. Am sure you want to know what was the answer of that question, it was yes. I could say carlos was my best friend, I get to know him better than any other as he knows me the best. I know his favorite color is green but he also likes gray, he likes to play basketball, he loves to see and play football and enjoys playing soccer. He likes patriots of football and he is barça in the soccer teams. When it comes of teams as a country he loves argentina and his favorite player is messi. 


He enjoys math and physics, actually he was one of the best at it. His favorite singer is eminem, he have almost every cd of him and he knows perfectly every song no matter how fast they may be. He loves pizza and the food his grandma does for him. He also like to eat sushi but he start to eat it with me. He hates tomatoes and some other vegetables. I also know he hates to loose, everything he does he finish it and he always give his best. He is a very competitive person but he is calm, he doesn't like fights and he is very humble.


 We where together 3 years and two months, and I never thought our relationship will have an end. He make me feel butterflies every time I see him, no matter how long we have been together I still felt in love with him more and more each day, every time I saw him was like the first time to me and I didn't wanted to be appart. I didn't wanted to come the time when he had to go. And when he wasn't with me I waited anxiously to see him again. We couldn't be apart more than 3 days, we just miss eachother so much. He went to an exchange program for 3 months and it was one of the hardest time I get to pass, I cried almost every night because I wanted to see him and I felt the day of him coming back would have never come.


 I realize I never wanted to be apart of this boy. I know people say we are to young for love passionately but my feelings for carlos were beyond that. He was my best friend, my soul mate, my boyfriend all at the same time. I couldn't wait the time for us to get married to come. I wanted to live with him and wake up everyday with him at my side. He knows everything about me, it takes only one look for us to understand what we were feeling and what we want. He was very attentive with me. Everything he could give me he gave me. Time wasn't enough for us to be together, we needed more than forever. We had all our lifes planned. He will study civil engineer and I industrial engineer. He wanted to have 2 kids and I wanted 3. He was very protective with me , he wanted the best for me. I wanted the best for him too, I didn't wanted anyone doing something that hurt him. He was a treasure for me. Our relationship wasn't perfect, people could thing we were crazy and that we needed help. But I knew we where meant to be, he will always be my first love. The love of my life! 


Hope I could change some things I did, he knows of what I am talking about. We were crazy about each other we did almost everything together, like staying at his house watching football, at my house watching a movie, we went to the beach, we went to church together, we went to the gym, we took boxing classes together and we never get tired of each other. April 21, 2011 we broke up. Maybe we needed that to grow and to get mature in separate ways. I believe everything happens for a reason, and I know carlos was in my life for a reason because without him I wouldn't be the person I am. And who knows what future have for us, but chino( as everyone call him) will always be one of the most important persons of my life and he knows he have a big place on my heart.

Monday, September 12, 2011

Like the first time, the day that finally arrived

We are going to disney land!- my dad said. Even though I have gone to disney land before this time it was different because I barely remember the last time I went. My dad have been really busy working so we never had the opportunity of traveling all the family together. I remember disney land for me was like a dream come true. The place where a kid can be happy no matter his/her physical appearence or events in their lifes. I remember I wanted to go so badly that I had the count on my journal starting like 60 days before. I was crazy about the idea of getting on a plane and go to Los Angeles to see mickey and minnie. I was still in school so I had to make letters for my school for them to give me permission for a week I will be absence. Every night I will stay up with my dad saying where we were going to eat, what malls we were going to visit, which parks we were going. I remember we talk about Tony Roma’s, Red lobster and that kind of restaurant, I also remember about talking to go to parks like universal studios and of course Disney land. It seems like the day will never come, that two months that have to pass for me to go on a trip felt like 6 months. I remember we talk to a family friend that lives there so we can stay in her home. We had the tickets to fly in our house and my passport too, I remember every night after going to sleep looking at it. Just to make sure it had going anywhere. One day some kids that lived on my condo get inside my house without permission and a neighbor that saw them told us, the first thing I did was looking if we still had the tickets to travel. And for my luck it was still there but I remember they took some chocolates I had on my room. But i didn’t care about anything more than our tickets to travel to LA. My grandmother gave me a bag for me to have on the airplane and I remember putting inside some books to paint in the plain and a barbie that I choose because I felt she was the lucky one that will visit another country with me so I pick it very carefully. The day finally arrive, I felt like I was the luckiest girl in the world. I had nine years old, I remember waking up at 4 in the morning to get to the airport at 6am. The night before we made our pacage I was so excited. my grandma come with us too. My dad, my mom and my little brother. my baby brother wasnt born yet. We get on the airpot and we eat there mcdonalds, I finally enter the airplane and I sat with my grandmother. And an stranger person because the plain had lines of tree people. As the plain went by I remember the woman that sat with us in the plain told us she had cancer, I don’t remember this woman very clearly but I do remember she didn’t look like he had cancer. I didnt know what to say or to do. I felt like I was waiting for one day that was so far to come and hadnt enjoy other days and this woman the only thing she wanted was having one more day of life. So I remember that this woman make me realise that I had to enjoy everyday to the fullest so when I was on LA a did. I remember when we get there we went to in-n-out to have a burger. For me it was the biggest and the most delicious burger I had ever eat. They gave us a bunch of fries that I loved, even though it was only burger and fries it takes like heaven to me. I remember feeling so out of place but at the same time being in the place i had always dream of. The people was very different of the people of my country, but I felt like we were all the equal. Everything we had planned with my dad we did. I remember feeling very proud and surprise of the ability of my dad to talk in english in front of American people, because I will felt very nervous to do so because I didn’t wanted to mess things up infront of people of other country saying a word wrong or not understanding what they will answer to me. We had a long trip in the car to get to disney land. when we get there I was the happiest girl in the world. When I was in the park I felt the air against my face and fell it so pure and claen, I remember the smell, which I cant describe but I know if I had the opportunity to smell it again I will recognize it is the same smell I smelled on Disney land. We had to do really long lines to get to one game, but I didn’t care because I was in disney! I was tall enough to go to every game I wanted except for one or two.  my favorite game was splash mountain, I did really long line for this game but i remember I went twice. That day when off so fast, but I will always remember it. I was really lucky of going there, I wish I can go back and do all the things I did over and over again.